Recently, a few decade old song started to trend again. While I'm not sure why it started to trend after such a long time, the lyrics are quite provoking and surprising to me. The dance given to the song make the lyrics one to worry less about but that changed when I went through it.
๐ถ "Somebody's watching me, it's my anxiety" ๐ถ is the main part of the song, implying that as humans, we all have our own anxiety to deal with. One thing our anxiety tries to do that we must fight is, it tries to make us weak. ๐ถ*"Anxiety, keep on trying me, feel it quietly, tryna silence me"* ๐ถ
Enough about the song but you might want to go listen to it's lyrics to get a musical and clear picture of what anxiety is, I'm actually surprised a song is composed to express this scary and unwelcomed feeling. I've had my own share of anxiety every now and then since I understood it.
At every stage of my life, in moments I have big decisions to take, anxiety always finds it's way into them making things more tensed and difficult to get through. Looking back to those moments, I regret why I let it delay me in doing the things before the time I decided to do them.
I don't think there is anyone who have found the cure to anxiety, like a human who is going through without any form of anxiety coming at some point in their lives. We can only say some have found a hack and this has helped them easily overcome difficult or uncertain situations.
My current struggle has to do with pressure for financial responsibilities that has made me conclude that what I have doing isn't enough and I must up my game and find better job opportunities or other sources of income. Going about it haven't been easy, I even got scammed.
Hunting for jobs, getting rejected and still having bills to sort can cause all sort of mental destability. If one isn't strong enough, there is going to be reason to give up in the midst of this. As someone who can't think of the give up option, I'm anxious to get things done very soon.
Another thing giving me so much bother and worries is coming from the pressure of getting married. Even though I act like I don't listen when they try to pressure me, I hear everything they say including the negative statements that tend to make me anxious but I try not to overthink it.
It's scary when there is so much to do but very little strength or means to go about doing them, anxiety crawls in and makes it even more scary, it is what I feel right now. But if there is one thing I am doing about it that is working is, I'm believing in God and trusting the process of everything.
Prioritizing my self in all this has been a good hack, I've learn to appreciate myself and the little I can do while I hope for the better days ahead where I can get a lot more things done. Anxiety will surely come in but the plan is to come out strong and also try to learn a lesson from it.
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